sooooo....at this moment in time I am in Columbus, with all of these beautiful women poets....volunteering and getting full...feeling a peace within myself...since losing Elijah Henry August 21st 2010 I have been becoming this new person, accepting my new role in life....loving this change...I cannot explain the level of pain I experience at times because of the loss of my baby....however my grief counseling allows me to mourn in a healthy way, and talk about him....speak Elijah's name whenever I can...to keep him remembered...to keep his spirit alive...he lived for two hours and smiled at me and I got that! I saw that...I felt my baby's love and continue to feel....I am sooooo open to my faith and to unconditional love! for every one! it is because of Elijah that I am a better woman to myself first and to others...it is because of Elijah that I am moving in my faith and letting God heal me! talking and writing about it is healthy and if you dont or cant take it!!! beat it! naw....yeah...real talk!! thanks for reading this whoever read it and may you find yourself through any pain or trials that you think are keeping you down, or from your dreams...pain is a form of correction and must be accepted....peace and love!!